Currently Listening A Fever You Can't Sweat Out By Panic! At The Disco see related

hey hey hey cool people!!!! so havent talked in a while...... lots has gone on... i have a boyfriend!! hes awesome... and i was sick earlier this week. and my boyfriend brought me roses.. 14 of them!  it made me so happy... but im having a few problems tho... its kinda hard and long to explain so im not guna  lalala....... ok just droppin in to say JAMBO!! lol.... peace out yo.

Currently Watching The Benchwarmers By Rob Schneider, Jon Heder see related

yo estoy mucho mucho abburida (or however you say bored.) ive decided that baseball isnt so bad... and the players are DEF. not so bad!! HEHE...

NERDS 4 LIFE!!!!!

i didnt do it, i swear!!!

Currently Listening Stand Still, Look Pretty Tennessee see related

hey yall... in case youre wondering in much better now. not so depressed. im just here singing.... yay.

volleyball conditioning started last monday but i didnt find that out until tuesday night. so i went for the rest of the week. IM SO EXCITED!!!! i was just goofin around and hitting the ball and stuff and i had some pretty awesome spikes. now lets see if i can do that in a GAME. eek.

my cousin was almos hit head on by another car last night. she was freakiing out. i can understand that. i was freaked out when i found out. eek.

eek.

eek.

well this past week has been a jewel. well the only people reading this already know what happend so i wont go back into it.. im trying to finally realize what happend. but unfortunately i probably wont ever understand it completely. im just trying not to be over dramatic. but my family is going through some stuff.

anyways.. so yea im really booooored. and volleyball conditioning starts next week. i dont even know how im going to get a ride there. its horrible. im beginning to think that i might have to give this up too because it just puts too much stress on everyone else.. im really going to be depressed if i cant play volleyball this year.. idk what id do...  i just had to chase my dumb puppy across the field... ugh. and i STILL need to do summer reading!! everything freakin sucks... my thing is that i always try to see the bright side of things and i always try to tell myself that things will get better. and i try to have an optimistic veiw but its really hard right now. everything is just piling on. and im scared to talk to my parents about all this cuz i know its worse for them and theyll tell me that i have nothing to complain about. and that if i think im going through hard times- that i DONT KNOW hard times. well no i guess i dont because this is all ive been through in my life- this is the worst its gotten for me. so they dont have any right to be telling me not to complain. and im not really trying to complain... but idk... im trying to make everyone happy and trying to stay out of everyones way but its putting too much stress on me.. and i hate being depressed because reading this might make everyone else depressed (id be depressed after reading this if i were you). and id hate for anyone to be depressed over me. but watever....